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Thursday, May 04, 2017

Some of what's happening in this

1. Net Neutrality is under attack again.
You can read about it here, here, and here.

There is a petition here, and further suggestions here.

Part of me thinks with big companies like Google backing net neutrality, we'll be fine. But with the current people in charge of the government, I can't be sure.


2. A women was sent to court for laughing at Jeff Sessions. No, that is not an exaggeration or a joke.


3. Healthcare is still at risk.


4. Our country's evil leader signed an executive order protecting "religious freedom" (meaning the ability to discriminate against LGBTQ+ people, because he has made it clear he doesn't care about Muslims  being safe and his talk about reducing antisemitism is lip service) and the ACLU is suing him.


5. Not only does Flint still not have clean water, they're being forced to pay for contaminated water.

© 2017 by M.R.R.

Sunday, April 09, 2017

During my childhood, my mother was really into Jewish holidays. So she decided to substitute Passover for Easter.

I am not celebrating with her anymore.

The main issue is cultural appropriation, which is the act of taking something sacred or special from a culture that a) you don't belong to and b) is seen as lesser than the dominant culture. Articles like these explains it pretty well.

Here are more links explaining specifically why it's inappropriate for Christians to celebrate Jewish holidays (except in cases where a Jewish person specifically invites you to take part in one).
It's that time again
Okay here’s why gentiles celebrating Jewish holidays is fundamentally wrong


In other news, we won't have house guests for much longer, which is wonderful for my introverted self.

© 2017 by M.R.R.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Personal updates

First, I've got things going on in the next couple weeks that will take up a lot of my energy, so I'll be on hiatus until the second week of April.

Second, I signed up with Project Wonderful months ago, but it's barely making anything. I got a Patreon account, and I'm working on a creator page. But I don't know how many people will actually support it, so it's staying unpublished until I have some idea of that.

Finally, I'm switching most of my public accounts to this picture in one form or another.
Image description:A mid-sized, black and white dog stands and pants next to a car on a dirt driveway.

You are still missed, baby.

© 2017 by M.R.R.

Thursday, March 16, 2017

What Intrusive Thoughts Are

Intrusive thoughts are strange and/or disturbing thoughts caused by mental illnesses such as anxiety disorders and OCD. Some of them are just weird, like eating something inedible. Others are disturbing and/or involve violence.

Like sometimes, I look at an object like a T-shirt or a vase and picture it being destroyed. It's not that I'm angry or I hate it; in fact, I often like the thing I'm looking at. But this is what my brain does.

It's also possible to have intrusive thoughts about things like suicide, self-harm, sex, and rape. Not fun in the frigging least.

It's important to point out most people don't want to act on their intrusive thoughts. Just thinking about driving your car into a tree, to give an example, doesn't mean you want to do it. It just happens because your brain is mean to you.

More resources and info
http://www.drmartinseif.com/resources/intrusive-thoughts.html
http://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/signs/intrusive-thoughts
http://ocdlife.ca/groinal-response-the-physical-side-of-sexual-obsessions/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrusive_thought

© 2017 by M.R.R.

Sunday, March 05, 2017

I'm still depressed, but feeling better at the moment. Whether this is the eye of the storm or if this particular depressive period is finally ending isn't clear yet.

In other news, one of my family members is getting married soon.

It has made me think I may not want to get married. I like the idea of a wedding, but the things I'm expected to do (personally greeting everyone in a large group of people, being the center of attention for an extended period of time) will aggravate my social anxiety disorder.

Oh, and one of the soon-to-be in-laws was kind enough to send me this.

Image description:A glass terrarium with three differently colored layers of planting material. On top are small plants.


© 2017 by M.R.R.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Tired

Can't do it
Dragging too much

Need to fight
For justice
For myself
But can't do much

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Just some links



  • What to do if you see someone forcibly removing a person's hijab, one and two


  • Endangered Species Chocolate - it's fair trade and a portion of the profits are used to help wildlife. So far, the only brick-and-mortar store I remember selling them is Raley's. Let me know if you've seen them elsewhere.



  • The official video for Solange's "I Decided"



© 2017 by M.R.R.

Sunday, February 05, 2017

Thoughts On Straight Line Stitch's "Cold Front"

This is one of a few ideas I've been playing with behind the scenes. And with how bad I've been feeling recently, I decided to start off with a song I like.

Artist:Straight Line Stitch

Album:The Fight Of Our Lives

Genres:metal, hard rock

What it's about:An ending relationship (whether platonic or not is unclear) and frustration at one's own coldness

Content notes/warnings:In the song itself, not much beyond angst over a relationship. Though with the album art, you should be careful if you're bothered by seeing dead animals.


One of Straight Line Stitch's only songs that contains no screaming.

Let's get started.

Don't turn away
You might miss as my soul starts to fade


Things ain't good.

Don't get too close
'Cause I stand alone
I've got no way out


Sounds like a case of "I want to be close to you, but I don't know how to make that happen".

Then the chorus starts, and you can't get it from just reading the lyrics, but the speaker's tone sounds almost angry. But it's not directed at the person she's addressing; it's more like she's frustrated and sad for being unable to keep the relationship from ending.

The next few lines reinforce this.

Don't be afraid of the emptiness that stands in your way

They're pleas for the person not to leave.

Stay with me, stay
But my frozen lips just won't let me say
Please stay


Not being able to speak up when you want or need to is never a good feeling.

Soon after, the chorus plays one more time, and there's no indictation of a happy ending.

Overall, the combination of angst and anger in this song works to its advantage. If you're into metal or hard rock, give it a listen.

© 2017 by M.R.R.

Monday, January 30, 2017

An artist who needs help

There's an artist I've been following who's really struggling right now, and at serious risk of homelessness.

If you could could give to their PayPal (there's a donate button on their blog) or Patreon, it would help a lot.

© 2016 by M.R.R.

Friday, January 20, 2017

Trump Is President...

Content notes:Donald Trump and friends, links containing mentions of domestic violence, descriptions of sexual assault, slurs, racism, including antisemitism, and more

Trump's now in office.

He's going to screw things up. And I hope it'll be in a way that will show his supporters just how bad a decision they made.

But they won't be the ones who will suffer the most. I'm worried about the people he'll hurt on the way down.

Monday, January 09, 2017

A series of haikus

I keep feeling tired
When will I have energy
I wish it would stop

Mental illness hurts
It drains everything it finds
I want it to stop

Functioning, only just
I'm tired of feeling stuck
With few options

I'm too broke for much
Wish I could afford to move out
And help people too

The world as a whole
Seems to keep on getting worse
And I feel helpless

Vile people in charge
Going to make everything
Just so damn terrible

And I want to write
But I keep feeling half-dead
Nothing seems quite right

So that is my vent
And I hope you enjoyed it
Thanks for reading

© 2017 by M.R.R.